You Spend Half of Your Life Trying to Fall Behind

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBEAaKcnNRg&feature=related

"It's like forgetting
the words to your favorite song.
You can't believe it.
You were always singing along."

Although I may have completely missed her meaning of the song, Regina seems to be speaking to my heart today.  Yesterday was decidedly, the first day of the rest of my life.  Maybe a fresh start today will provide me better results because if yesterday is what I have to look forward to then I may as well pull the covers over my head and wait it out.

There's this part of me that thinks that everything is like riding a bicycle.  Sit on the piano seat and your fingers will just remember..like on a bike.  Sit in on a German conversation and your mouth will just remember..like on a bike.  Sit and eat a salad and you stomach will just remember..like on a bike.  Sadly incorrect on all parts.  Regaining this sense of established self all at once is of genuine difficulty and it's truly a pity that I can't just pick up where I left off.  At least I'm out of bed, that's step one.

-rawr

P.S. For the curious mind, I didn't have the right moment to propose my thought on ill-conceived commitment at the picnic. I'll accept it as being some kind of wise underpinning. It's probably better that I just "slow my roll."  Everything doesn't have to happen today.  If ever something was worth the wait, maybe he is <3.